About 7 years ago I found myself attending a spirit filled church. I did for 3 or 4 years. I gave there and gained there. Ultimately is was the people part that just messed it up. So, I have God in me, and I believe in Him.. but not so much peoples interpretations, opinions, behavior, etc. I am open to what the universe has to offer, the energy and a higher power- God. You won't hear me talk about it much anymore, because it's personal.
During that time, I had an encounter where a pastor from Wales (my pastor was from Ireland and we had many visitors from overseas) spoke a message that was, to this day, a moment that stands out and comes up to the surface often. Basically he spoke directly to people with physical deformities. At the time, I had no idea my skull and spine and bones were deformed, other than my knees. My knees were the issue since childhood. Anyway, he called everyone up who had any physical issue, relating to bones. I was very certain I was to go up. A close friend even turned around and said "Um, your knees Sharon, go up." I was not a go-er upper. So fine, I went up to the front near where he was speaking. I can't kneel so I sat down on the floor. I was kind of creeped out, but also open.
The pastor said several things that were pretty clear for me, although there were a few others on the floor too. Well, then he came down off of the stage, and came right over to me. He got down on the ground in front of me. He said some things, that I have no doubt, were for me and my bones. But he said something I will never forget "Gentleness of Christ". He said that while touching my head several times. It was a night I will probably never forget.
For the next week, I felt the strangest "reworking" in my heart, I literally physically felt stretched or something was aching in my heart. I was driving to a meeting for work, and I passed an elderly man walking to a store. I was at a stop light and I just glanced over at him, and something I can't explain happened. I felt his pain so strongly. I felt so clearly that he was truly suffering and needed help. I said a prayer for him, and noticed he was walking into a pharmacy.
I will never forget that man. I felt like I had some healing thing going on. That I have some purpose in the healing thing. I had some message given to heal. From God. Yes. Crazy, but true. I mean, I had pain, namely from my knees, but what was I going to do with this seed, and what was it? I mean, me? I had a few more incidents where I would see someone and feel their pain. I was going nuts! I told a close friend at the time, that there was something I was to do about healing, and let it sail onward, released. I did several searches on Gentleness of Christ, and have not found much, not really sure what it means for me, but I have remembered it, like a puzzle yet to be solved. I do not consider myself to be Gentle. Step one?
When I learned about Klippel-Feil Syndrome, I have had a bit of thankfulness that I did not know sooner, that God kept it until I needed to know more, and could handle more, and that my knees were not nearly all of what was going on in this body. But also, I was ticked, I still am a bit ticked. I mean, KFS has smeared a lot of my goals and dreams! That whole, 'God has plans for you' thing has, in fact, shown itself, and it's been kind of a bummer!
Years have passed. I have not been as sure of God in some ways, but in others, I know he is there, and I do connect and pay attention, etc. Mostly now, my days are about battling pain. Severe, relentless pain. I will do anything, and have tried most everything, and nothing is too small or too silly, to kick it's ass. But lately, this "Gentleness of Christ" thing has come up, it keeps swarming through me, around me, surfacing. Along with realizing I have had some spite and anger about a few things, and how it has related to dealing with Klippel-Feil Syndrome day to day.
Interested to see how it all unfolds, and how my purpose will continue to bloom and keep budding, while keeping the thorns under control.
Here's to healing, gently!
Sharon Rose
For I,’ says the Lord, ‘will be a wall of fire all around her, and I will be the glory in her midst.’”
[ The Spiritual War ] Now I, Paul, myself am pleading with you by the meekness and gentleness of Christ—who in presence am lowly among you, but being absent am bold toward you.
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